I really should just make up my mind. I know now that my LS leaders have stumbled on my blog already, and that they've seen the... um... not-so-kind things I say about how they run it and whatnot. And that's been explained to them that it's pretty much just to let out the steam so it doesn't build into another /ragequit. But I'm... divided. I know Pandora's is a great shell, with great people, but how do I go about helping to fix the problems I see in the shell? I know that, as a person, I tend to take things a bit too far sometimes, and I'm worried I might do the same when it comes to fixing some of the problems I perceive in the shell.
To me, right now, taking a break from the shell is not an option. Not only would I be running away from the problems (first and foremost, I hate that in ANYONE, especially myself), I would be leaving the shell high-and-dry with no truly reliable Black Mages. They have other people with Black Mage leveled, but no one with the skill, gear or general knowledge of the job other than myself, really. The rant about taking the pops I have is, for the most part, just that. A rant. I bitched someone out for doing the same thing earlier, so why would I go back on my own beliefs and values to just fuck over a group of people I call my friends? Though, if the issue with the previously-mentioned officer doesn't clear up either tonight or on the 13th... it's still an option, though I'll probably fucking hate myself afterwards.
Also, if I were to quit Pandora's, I would be doing yet another thing I loathe about this game. Get my shit and leave. There are events that I do not like doing, generally. Sky is, unfortunately, one of them. I dislike the repetitiveness, but PDB makes it enjoyable. I don't want to leave them, and they don't want me to leave. But, again, some of the problems in the shell need to be solved ASAP, and to a point where it won't happen again. Most of the problems are... personnel issues, I guess. People don't like people, and the LS is worse off for it. This is the sort of stuff that should be handled one-on-one, with an officer's intervention only if necessary, but as I've also said before, there are MANY people who all have issues with ONE person in the shell. I usually have no problem using (or abusing) my authority, but my inherent respect for Maka and Mem has, so far, prevented me from kicking the people who've joined since recruiting was closed.
I know I'm a jackass when it comes to leadership, I'm extremely disdainful of any sort of failure beyond just horrible luck, and I have little tolerance for idiots. But, those same aspects also make me a (in my mind, and the minds of many others) damn good leader. I drive people to better themselves, not only for their sake, but for the "greater good". Idiocy is something I tolerate to the point of acknowledging their existence, and attempting to make it better, if you're thick-headed enough to refuse advice, you can go fall off a cliff as far as I'm concerned, and you'll know it. I have a tendency to kick those sorts of people without even a second glance, and the Linkshell, clan, unit, group, whatever the hell you want to call it, will be better off for it in the long run. I'm also a very... by-the-numbers leader. I don't lead based on emotions (usually), I lead based on cold, hard facts and numbers. You're a good member who shows up often and has minimal attitude problems? Congratulations, here's your shit, now please stay and help. You're part of a small group in the LS that dislikes a rule or policy that is otherwise well-accepted by the rest? Sorry, majority rules. Don't like it enough to follow the rules? You're gone. No ifs, ands or buts about it, even if you're a friend. Actually, ESPECIALLY if you're a friend. Some may call me ruthless, but I see it more as trying to help the MAJORITY or the ENTIRETY as opposed to playing favorites. People should be rewarded based on their time and effort spent, not based on if you're friends, fuckbuddies or what-have-you.
I'm also not a person to leave people hanging when they need help, if I can help in any way. Just not gonna happen. All you need to do is ask, and if I'm not busy, I'll more than likely be willing to help. Just, don't ask for stupid stuff. NM camps, as long as you either have a ToD for a long-spawn (12+ hours) or AREN'T GOING TO SELL IT, cool. Missions? Cool. Just not CoP Chapter 2. 30 cap can suck my fucking dick. Quests? Sure. Random exploration? Awesome, I can broaden my horizons, too. I don't expect something in return, unless it's an NM that drops something I can use as well, and then I'd like a fair shot at lotting it. That's it. No payment necessary (though it's more than welcome :D)
Wow. Fucking finger-diarrhea there. Whatever. On to updates!
CoP 5-3, Three Paths: Done. 1/1 on EVERYTHING. Dear God those fights are fucking cake with the right setups.
Caught up to the LS CoP static, and ahead of most, with all the CSs up to and including the Airship fight intro CS complete.
Zac got 75SAM, and, in his usual fashion, is pretty damn pimped out. I'm jealous.
Um... switched national allegiance, as I'm tired of waiting for Kristi to log on to do Sandy missions. Now a proud resident of the Federation of Windurst, Rank 2. Goddamn dragon.
Other than that, nada.
Take care, and Happy New Year to my readers. The 5 or so of you. ;)
